Bragging Rights
The ache
For my mother
Is strong this morning
Her absence
Stinging
Raw
Unwanted
The kids had
Teacher conferences
Last night
I would be
Calling her
Right about now
Had she been alive
Bragging
Boastful
As only I
Could be with her
And not feel stupid
She gobbled up
The kids’ accomplishments
By the spoonful
Always laughing
Wanting more
I will not
Get that satisfaction
Today
Nor ever
And I must
Learn to live with that
©2014 Jill Baker

I’m sure this is a familiar feeling for those of you who have also lost a loved one. Wanting to share something important, funny, sad. Only to find out that you couldn’t because they are no longer just a phone call away. Mom, here’s something for you to read when you get the chance..
Jill: I feel so bad for you….I lost my dad 11 years ago and the hurt is as strong today as it was then. I miss him terribly and wonder if the pain will ever go away. But now I have an even greater loss; my daughter and grandchildren and I am praying that some day, she will realize the hurt I feel and resolve her reasons for her actions. I truly feel like I am grieving a death. We have to believe that someone we will be able to smile at the memories more than shed tears at the hurt. You take care, Sandi Anderson
I’m so sorry to hear of this Sandi. A big hug for you – thanks for sharing. Take care. Jill